Short entry before I go
Jun. 10th, 2009 07:11 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
we_are_spcI was thinking about some things earlier today, and realized a few things. ... only two actually.
I think it's been about six weeks now since my meeting of the infamous Ryan of HOLD, and thinking back on this, I was hit by the following clue-by-fours:
He taught me about keeping boundaries. Due to the fact that he was pushing against my 'mental wals' so to speak, and that I was able to repel said pushes speaks volumes for the system stability, and it also lets me know that I'm not afraid to say "Hell no, stay the fuck out, I don't want you hear damnit!" The fact that I was able to *keep* him out... yeah well.
He also taught me that I can keep physical boundaries as well and say, "Look... I can't deal with this, so... no, I don't think I can deal with *you*... at all, thank you, good bye."
It was hell for me to have to say no, though, because that was the first time I'd ever had to intentionally tell someone who seemed nice enough that I didn't want to have anything to do with him, and the reasons *why* I didn't want anything to do with him. It was hell... but I did it, damnit. ::is proud::
I will be writing up an account of the birthday party for H'vorxixnon. Just not tonight. :p
See you lovelys later! ::waves:: :)
-P
I think it's been about six weeks now since my meeting of the infamous Ryan of HOLD, and thinking back on this, I was hit by the following clue-by-fours:
He taught me about keeping boundaries. Due to the fact that he was pushing against my 'mental wals' so to speak, and that I was able to repel said pushes speaks volumes for the system stability, and it also lets me know that I'm not afraid to say "Hell no, stay the fuck out, I don't want you hear damnit!" The fact that I was able to *keep* him out... yeah well.
He also taught me that I can keep physical boundaries as well and say, "Look... I can't deal with this, so... no, I don't think I can deal with *you*... at all, thank you, good bye."
It was hell for me to have to say no, though, because that was the first time I'd ever had to intentionally tell someone who seemed nice enough that I didn't want to have anything to do with him, and the reasons *why* I didn't want anything to do with him. It was hell... but I did it, damnit. ::is proud::
I will be writing up an account of the birthday party for H'vorxixnon. Just not tonight. :p
See you lovelys later! ::waves:: :)
-P
